Last night I was discharged home.
Home, meaning the Ronald McDonald House.
I didn’t go right home though, I went to the NICU to say goodnight to my baby.
We stayed until about 2 am.
And then I left the hospital without my baby for the first time.
One of my new kindred souls here was in the NICU for 3 months.
She told me once that she only cried one time during her whole stay.
She is amazing.
I’ve cried every single day so far.
And especially at nights, when I have to say goodbye.
Nate says Calvin cried when they first put his foley in.
I have yet to hear the little man cry.
He’s so tough. Way tougher than his mama.
I’ve cried WAY more than Calvin during this thing.
Nate hasn’t cried either.
Lucky for me I have some strong men in my life.
As for me… I blame the hormones